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Appendix 1

I.A.Djakov. Amaterasu

The truth about perezhitom in Trehreche for Belief and Fatherland 
 
Has come, at last, long-awaited time when I can open and truthful,
without everyones prikras, imaginations and fear and so as was, to
describe struggle against the Japanese authorities for ideals
expensive to Russian heart in Trehreche when I was there the inspector
of schools. I shall write in interests of true only the truth. Whether
yes it is possible to admit lie in the description of the experiences
which are growing out of struggle for the maximum values which true
is. It all directors and the teachers, the schools subordinated to me
and will confirm Cossack population Trehrechja. 
 
At drawing up of story "Amaterasu" I used a special diary where
brought the maintenance of all my conversations with commanding
persons, the directors of schools learning and other persons. In the
beginning of February, 1942 I have received the invitation from
provincial management Southern - Argunskoj provinces (Trehrechja) to
hold a post of the inspector of Russian national schools. Before I
lived eleven years outside of Manchuria, in the various countries and
cities of the south and have arrived to Harbin from Hong Kong, not
knowing plans of the Japanese authorities concerning our children and
youth. On the basis of newspaper clauses in " Harbinskom time " which
I had to read abroad, I thought, that in Manchuria Russian enable to
bring up children in only Russian spirit, as the future citizens of
our Fatherland. 
 
Having accepted the invitation, I began to plan various actions in
business of education not only children, but also all population of
this extensive area. 
 
Having arrived in the city of Najlumptu (village Dragotsenka) in cold
winter evening on February, 8, 1942, I have stopped at the chief of an
agricultural department of provincial management Pelmeneva. In
conversation with it at supper I have understood, that my work will
meet set of obstacles on the part of the Japanese authorities. I have
told to it, that else in Hong Kong I had to read " Harbinskoe time "
and that else there, due to newspaper clauses, I had a joyful belief,
that the Japanese authorities in Manchuria render Russian all-round
moral and material support in their aspiration to bring up children
for a native land, that this help is distributed not only to schools,
but also on Church and on every possible literary and art
circles. With deep satisfaction I have noted, that the chief of the
Japanese military mission in Harbin general Janagita in the numerous
performances inverted to Russian youth, emphasized, that young Russian
should not forget the Native land, be proud of a great rank - Russian,
and called them to devote to service to the Native land all forces. 
 
Is so, - has agreed with me Pelmenev, - but ? to speak about it it is
impossible. Dangerously, - it has told, having lowered a voice. 
 
- it is dangerous?! - I was surprised. 
 
- Yes. I read speeches of general Janagita, but ? to speak us,
  Russian, about it it is impossible: and walls have ears. 
 
I did not understand Pelmeneva and continued: 
 
- Ideas of Russian emigrants should be directed there ? on the West,
  instead of on the east. Ideas of love and fiery belief in merge us
  and "them" in one people of the great country. Let the destiny has
  thrown out us for borders of our Fatherland, but, I repeat, there
  will come time when barrier between us and "them" and we will be
  erased, having understood each other as sons of one Native land, we
  shall create one great Russian business. 
 
At these words my interlocutor has for some reason looked in the
window tightened by ice patterns, dark, frosty night whence looked out
and has silently spoken: 
 
- I agree with you. All of us so think, but ? be cautious. I repeat:
  and walls have ears, not with everyone it is possible so to speak. 
 
- All happened there twenty five years ago, - were continued by me, -
  examine as historical necessity. So it was necessary ? 
 
- you for a long time from Hong Kong? - has interrupted me Pelmenev. 
 
- Recently, - I have answered and continued. - Why you speak, what it
  is impossible to share frankly the ideas on the Native land, on love
  to it, about greatness of its future, ideas, what we should live for
  it, bring up, prepare for children for Fatherland? Why? When general
  Janagita ? 
 
- It is visible, that you recently in Manchuria, - has smiled
  Pelmenev. - Here it is necessary to speak one, to think another, to
  do the third - and to do with the most serious kind ? - it has
  finished silently. 
 
- I so am not able, - I have answered. 
 
- be not able ? Then it will be difficult for you to live with us ? we
  live in Manchzhudigo, - it continued, - and to not be lost, should
  observe interests only Manchzhudigo ? 
 
- And Russia? - I was surprised. 
 
- I love Russia, ardently, deeply, but ? Russia needs while
  temporarily to be forgotten. It is necessary ? for the Russia. 
 
An inexpressible pain these words have responded in my heart. 
 
To forget Russia? The Native land?! And if authorities of it
Manchzhudigo will inspire our children hatred to our Native
land?.. Will make of them its enemies?.. 
 
- Yes, they do it and as you will see then, do cautiously, as
  Manchzhudigo - the most artful enemy of the USSR. 
 
- ? and when this country together with Japan will declare war of the
  USSR our children should be at war with Russian, shoulder to
  shoulder with their enemies, whether so? 
 
Is the purpose of the Japanese authorities, - it is silent, almost
whisper has spoken Pelmenev, - but it will not be: I know cossacks ?
Eat! - it has told loudly. - Will live - will see, but remember one:
be cautious. For now we should serve the country "which has
"sheltered" us. 
 
- Sheltered? - I was surprised. 
 
- Yes, sheltered, - it has told loudly and half-whisper: - A lot of
  Russian has arrived to Manchuria long before Japanese. These people
  have constructed the railway, have brought here culture, have
  recovered edge. And then "they" came, present our owners. Have taken
  hold of our property, have ruined the country, and we should them
  bow, thank for all this and for the whole world shout, that Japanese
  have rescued, have sheltered us. And try to not shout? 
 
- But what this such? - I have objected. - Authorities speak us about
  necessity of education of our children for the Native land and at
  the same time want to create from them its enemies. Encourage in
  words love to Fatherland - tortures suppress display of this love to
  it in practice? So, whether that? 
 
- Yes so, - has silently answered Pelmenev. - the Purpose of the
  present government of Japan - to subdue all Asian peoples, to win
  territory of Russia up to Urals Mountains, and they want to make it
  under a kind of mutual prosperity of the Asian nations under
  leadership Nippon in view of goddess Amaterasu Oomikami. To carry
  out this primary goal, they aspire to re-educate gradually and us
  and mainly our children, to make of them adherents of the Japanese
  culture, the truth, developing in them love to nonexistent "native
  land" with which new "native land" - Nippon subsequently should
  replace. That is why the basic subject from the most younger, first
  branch at school is the so-called civil morals, or spirit of the
  basis of the state, i.e.  that brings up in children consciousness
  of unity of nationalities in Manchzhudigo under guidance Nippon in
  view of a rising sun, and also the Japanese language which all
  should study - and is old and mlad. 
 
Almost I had literally such conversation with the chief of an
agricultural department in the first evening of my stay in
Trehreche. This conversation has made on me the most depressing
impression. With inexpressible mental anguish I have lain to
sleep. Any strange, inexpressiblly heavy presentiment has seized me;
at the same time joyful consciousness, that in this gloomy conditions
I shall work together with Russian, increased my confidence of the
safe end of my undertaking. 
 
Next day after a plentiful breakfast together with the hospitable
owner I have gone to provincial management. 
 
Bright frosty morning. A snow dropped out by night sijaet silvery
beliznoj on hills surrounding a village, on roofs of houses; from
pipes the direct, apparently, stiffened lilovo-golden columns of a
smoke rise. Everywhere native a picture: sledge, zaprjazhennye in pair
Cossack loshadok; muzhiks in shaggy Cossack caps, in fur-coats,
sheepskin coats; women with buckets on koromysle; wide streets with
two numbers of timbered log huts; church in the distance with a cross
shining on the sun. The abstruse Russian song whence reaches and zvon
bubentsov ? In all it the native land, Russia is felt, but hardly
perceptible grief and melancholy pressing heart oppress soul, filling
with its feeling of bitter insult from consciousness, that all this
Russian corner is chained by invisible circuits of the one who wants
to impose the will to Russian people. The sword of the Samurai
directed on the West, hangs above us ? 
 
Here and provincial management - a huge timbered building with a
number of windows with white platbands and a high porch in the
middle. On a high mast before it on a frost the Japanese flag
helplessly hangs. Under it - manchzhugoussky. 
 
In provincial management me have presented the governor to mister
Bato, the Mongol on a nationality, the counselor the Fudzita-dignity
and to all chiefs of departments of management. 
 
Mister Fudzita has made on me pleasant impression the open intelligent
person. It has asked me - from what I provinces where studied,
interested in my scientific trips to the countries of Southern Asia
and works on oriental studies. I have been well accepted also by all
chiefs of departments - Russian, Japanese and Chinese. The assistant
to the counselor of the governor the Imura-dignity, mister of a gloomy
kind, has specified to me a room where I should work, and has soon
brought the whole bale of papers. Assorting them, I have found every
possible charters and projects of charters of any societies, any
attitude to school not having, with a heap of clauses, paragraphs,
items; some projects of speeches too not on school themes. I have told
about it the Imura-dignity. It has answered, that the main task in my
activity propagation among the population of idea of " the light order
", spirit of the basis of the state, problems and the purposes of
sacred emancipating East-Asian war and struggle against communism
becomes. This unexpected application of the assistant to the counselor
of the governor has struck me, and I most have decisively declared it,
that categorically I refuse a similar sort of activity and that if my
refusal will not be accepted, I leave back to Harbin. I have declared
it at presence the Imura-dignity to the governor and his counselor the
Fudzita-dignity. Last something has told on - japonski the assistant
and, having addressed to me, has declared: you do not worry. Work how
you will find necessary, coordinating your undertakings with my
assistant the Imura-dignity. We you have invited here as the teacher
and the scientist, as the inspector of schools. I personally know your
scientific works, heard about your travel on southern islands and I
hope, that you will put Russian schools in Trehreche on due height. "
And here my travel on southern islands? " Flash then at me in a head,
but I have not given any value to these words. All their sense has
opened only a year later. 
 
Next day I have met in provincial management director of local school
Roman - Korsakovym. The application it too has exasperated the
Imura-dignity, and it from its part asked me to not give to it value,
obeshchav on behalf of teachers of the school to render to me
all-round support. 
 
Have absurdly passed the first days of my service. I have been
deprived any independence. I should report on each step to the
governor ? in the person the Imura-dignity which answered all my
questions: " Wait! " Some days I could not visit even local
school. Become for me hated for a word "wait" has exasperated me, at
last, and I have decided to go without any sanction there. At school I
have addressed with speech to teachers (in a teacher's room) and to
the pupils built in a hall. In the word to teachers I have emphasized
great value of a calling of the teacher in education of the future
citizens of great Fatherland. The pupil has specified a great word
meaning "Russian". 
 
- Russia one of the greatest countries of the world. She is a mother
  small oppressed and underdogs of peoples. A basis of world
  peace. Hold highly and with honour bear the Russian banner. Be
  worthy a great rank - Russian, - I have finished the speech. 
 
After conversation with teachers in a teacher's room to me have shown
school - huge light classes, a boarding school, workshop, library, a
dining room, kitchen. 
 
With joyful consciousness of the responsibility for statement of a
teaching and educational affair in Trehreche, with belief in
realization of the treasured dream to protect Russian school from
harmful and dark influence Amaterasu (the Japanese goddess - a symbol
of greatness Nippon. The way to a victory over all not Asian world), I
has returned in inspection kvartirku. 
 
In the evening I was invited to itself to a supper by N.A.Ostroumov,
the former secretary of archbishop Nestora. It, his wife Darya
Ivanovna, the midwife - feldsheritsa of local hospital, their son Jury
and the teacher of local school S.K.Jaskevich have met me as
native. Talking with them, I gradually began to open true sense of the
Japanese policy in Manchzhudigo. I have understood, that appeared in
the world of contradictions, cunning, hypocrisy, a lie. 
 
- Daily during morning ceremonies we bow to national flags, - spoke
  JAskevich, - we sing hymns Manchzhudigo and Nippon - all over again,
  certainly, Nippon. We do deep bows aside residences of emperors of
  these countries, and in special days - and aside temple
  Kenkoku-simbio devoted to goddess Amaterasu, and also aside
  CHurejto, a monument to victims for an establishment new " the light
  order ". In the so-called instructive speeches to studying and the
  pupil various representatives manchurian and nipponskoj authorities
  (all nipponskoj nationalities) and every possible employees
  Kio-vakaj (it state the "national" organization on guard of
  greatness of a throne) inspire us an idea on necessity of
  unconditional submission to requirements of the state to give
  "native land" Manchzhudigo all - last values, health, knowledge,
  work and the life. For the slightest insubordination to this
  requirement us put in infected sypnjakom prisons, pytajut and, at
  last, shoot as supporters of the USSR, and we, in the name of a
  victory liderstvujushchego Nippon, with shouts "banzaj" (hurrah) and
  with damnations in the soul, frightened of "mattresses" and
  "teapots" in torture chambers, endow frequently last pennies as
  katorzhane we carry out led by unfortunate "governor" - the Mongol
  "sacrificial" works, i.e. we clean kanavy, the areas, we put, as
  idiots, in not blocked places where the cattle wanders, any dry
  prutiki and at the same time without any plan we destroy for needs
  of the state century woods, and all this we do "voluntary" with
  poklonenijami, singing of hymns, performances in newspapers with
  expression of gratitude to authorities " great Nippon pro favourable
  " the sanction to show our "patriotic" feelings. And so-called
  defensive and other employment when us forced to put on the
  defensive form: Men should carry Japanese kiovakajku with
  nazatylnikom, windings, to a belt to fasten a towel and a cord, and
  women - ugly shutovskie trousers - mompe, instead of a scarf or
  kerchiefs, they should put on a head ugly black helmets both the
  same cords and a towel at a belt. Dressed in this shutovskuju the
  form, empty buckets forced to transfer us hours on a circuit each
  other, to extinguish an imagined fire, to fall in a dirty, to sit
  hours per holes, - to extinguish rogozhkami or sand from paper
  kulkov imagined bombs; at the slightest infringement of " defensive
  rules " us beat on cheeks, drew melom at women on a back and
  circles, or special hieroglyphs are lower, offending their female
  bashfulness. In a word, us human advantage and pride forced to do
  against what the common sense protests. And we frightened, did all
  this, bowed and thanked. And try to not thank - new mockeries, quite
  often arrest and tortures. About as I hate them! - With feeling of
  indignation has finished JAskevich. 
 
From conversation with my new familiar I have learned, for example,
that the population "voluntary", under fear of reprisals is obliged to
hand over to the state grain on 3 gobi 10 hair drier for pood. Grain
it develops quite often in unadapted granaries. There it decays,
perishes or in part goes on a state mill, and this substandard
(certainly, it it happens also good) a flour sell to the population on
12 gobi 75 hair drier for pood. The kept good-quality grain goes for
needs of the state. At cossacks of thousand heads of cattle, and all
this cattle on the account of the state. The special commissions go
round settlements, sometimes resolve slaughter, the most part of bacon
and meat select to the state under low state rates (and sometimes
free-of-charge), skins put in unadapted sheds, there they rot, and as
a result almost all population Trehrechja golo and is barefooted. ca
purchase of a new fur-coat or a fur coat is necessary prison with
inevitable mockeries and frequently with medieval tortures and
death. I personally for the trips on schools wanted was to get a
sheepskin coat, but any petitions to me have not helped, and the
governor has directly declared: " About it to speak dangerously! " The
same commissions select at rich cossacks of studhorses under a kind
sapnyh and under the high prices sell them somewhere outside of
Trehrechja. And they exhaust every possible duties, oppress
cossacks. " Voluntary ", under fear of reprisals on state, up to
ridiculous to low rates they carry rack of every possible officials,
representatives, tourists from Japan, carry in any weather, at any
time day and night, in hot working hours, let alone "meetings" of the
high-ranking visitors from the center, with inevitable banquets due to
cossacks. On these meetings collect the population from all
Trehrechja, tearing off from works and in a harvest season. Cossacks
wait, having built in columns, the whole hours and without caps, even
in severe frosts, listen to "instructive" speeches of the high-ranking
visitors. This "honourable" speed up schoolboys are exposed and
polurazdetye. These meetings are accompanied poklonenijami in all
parties and "vysokomilostivymi" speeches of the "magnanimous"
authorities which have allowed the population " to accept honourable
participation (under fear of arrest and tortures) in amplification of
fighting power of the leader of East Asia great Nippon " for final
destruction of anglo-saxons and all his enemies ". And the "grateful"
population with a gnash tooth, with reddened from a frost and ? anger
persons, with the tears of "pleasure" caused by hatred to "owners" of
the country, shouts " banzaj! ", claps, and then in newspapers reads
about "patriotism", about " to will to a victory " and " determination
to break all enemies great Nippon ". 
 
- Receives the population and "manufactory", it is frequent as
  lentochek a calico or coarse calico, - continued JAskevich. - to
  Japanese - meters. Is present in Dragotsenke and cooperative
  society. To "Owners" first of all - all. Russian and to Chinese -
  the pity rests or anything. 
 
On " amplification of fighting power " cossacks carry sand, bricks,
stones, logs, clay, fire wood, and this duty for some reason is always
dated to a spring impassability of roads or by time when cossacks are
borrowed on fields and mowings. 
 
Is present in Dragotsenke and hospital where patients crowd on
kitchen, preparing itself I peep in own saucepans. In chambers roll on
beds in fur coats, in boots. Under beds it is not forbidden to sleep
to relatives of patients. In man's chambers women, and on the contrary
can lay. Patients "cut", as cossacks, without any narcosis, in a room
with open windows under supervision of crowd of Chinese, fans of
strong sensations speak. Water with clots of blood, pus, and also
night pots are splashed out at a rear entrance so with this party to
approach to hospital of a dog are afraid even. 
 
Functions in Trehreche and school on a background all same: " All on
amplification of fighting power ", " we Shall break anglo-saxons and
communism ", " the Life and death with Nippon ", etc. 
 
Gloomy ideas have arisen in my consciousness after conversation with
my new friends in Dragotsenke, and in me the determination has even
more become stronger to oppose false, artful feeble efforts of the
Japanese authorities the Russian ideas first of all concerning
education of children and youth in Trehreche, and for this purpose I
have decided to achieve the sanction to go round all settlements of
this area. But only in a month I managed to make it. 
 
The first settlement where I have gone, was CHalotuj. The poor school,
poor conditions, the old shabby textbooks, need, but high burning in
soul of already elderly, rather skilled teacher doing the
imperceptible noble business, without any management, without
programs, in a vice of requirements to bring up children in spirit of
" the state morals ". 
 
The pain compressed heart when I listened to brisk children's babble:
" Great Nippon and Manchzhugo are connected by the eternal sacred
union and spiritually represent a single whole " ? Or: " Emperor great
Nippon and emperor Manchzhugo spiritually make a single whole as a
pledge of a victory ? ", etc., and in this atmosphere - "Nippon",
"Manchzhugo", " Hakko ichi-u ", "Vandao", " Joint prosperity of
peoples under leadership Nippon ", " the Life and death with Nippon ",
" Sacred east-Asian war ", " All for a victory ", etc. - are brought
up Russian children without knowledge of history, geography, the
nature, a life and culture of a native land. 
 
- it becomes terrible, when you think of the future of our children, -
  the teacher in conversation with me after lessons has told. - we
  give them not that it is necessary. 
 
- And why you do it? 
 
- From us provincial management demands. 
 
- the Basic requirement of Russian school, and your school Russian, -
  I have answered, - development of consciousness in pupils of an
  accessory to great Russian people is first of all. 
 
- And unless so it is possible to speak? - the poor teacher was
  frightened. - Russian people lives in the USSR, and for the
  slightest display of sympathy to this country arrest and tortures
  threatens. 
 
- I know it, - I have answered. - But you should, and I put it to you
  in a duty, first, to bring up in children love to Russia, first of
  all, as to the certain country having the known nature, riches,
  etc. Second, love to the native people having certain history, the
  great past, belief, culture. Thirdly, a worship for everything, that
  we name Russian soul, the Russian genius, burning and the great
  Russian heart reflected in feats and affairs of great Russian
  people. Fourthly, belief in the great future of our Native land and,
  fifthly, joyful expectation of that moment when all borders between
  us and "them" will be erased. As well as under what conditions and
  circumstances it will take place - about it to speak, certainly, it
  is not necessary, but to speak that I to you have told, it is
  necessary. As you see, about the USSR I have not said any word. At
  last, do it cautiously. 
 
In the evening I asked the ataman of settlement to collect a
meeting. There has come almost all population of settlement. After all
"counselor" of the ataman - the Japanese in kiovakajskom a suit was. I
have warned all and, certainly, mainly the Japanese that I shall speak
about " great sacred east-Asian war " in the south and began the
performance, whenever possible, from the picture description of the
fantastic nature about. Borneo where I several years ago was as the
researcher of a life dajakov. My "speech" interrupted remarks like: "
Hear, soaring, - milk and bread grow on trees ", or " Here to us there
- lay to itself and spit in a ceiling ". 
 
I have finished such description of "war" by words: " Great Nippon has
taken hold of these riches strength of mind and heroism of the
soldiers, it is similar ? " - and I immediately passed to the
description of great feats of Alexander Nevskogo, Sergija
Radonezhskogo, Dimitrija Don, John Groznogo, Peter the Great, Suvorov,
Kutuzov, etc., having specified cossacks, that with these feats
Russian children should be familiar to learn and grow fond of the
Native land, is similar nipponskim to soldiers - I have emphasized for
the Japanese, and that our Native land will be greater and that she
waits for us. But to know the Native land - it is necessary to
study. And to study the school for which bring as much as possible
fire wood that your children did not freeze in it is necessary, - I
have finished the speech, - or in the best way construct new school
which will be pride and an ornament of your settlement. 
 
After conversation the counselor of the ataman has approached to me
and thanked me for " suggestion of admiration won nipponskim the
weapon riches ". (the Odd fellow, as though, beauty of the nature
about. Borneo grow out gains of the Japanese weapon!) my conversation
with pupils after lessons was more frank. At the presence of teacher
Chikanovoj I spoke them about the Native land, about its last and
greater future. Within a month I have gone round all area and have
returned in Dragotsenku. Visiting settlements, I have close got
acquainted with all pedagogical personnel of the schools subordinated
to me and with population Trehrechja. 
 
After returning from business trip in the report addressed to the
governor I have emphasized necessity of the organization of years
pedagogical rates. It was offered to me to develop the project of
position and programs of these rates, that by me and it has been
made. Simultaneously I have developed also programs in general for all
Russian schools in Trehreche. 
 
Soon I have received the offer from the Imura-dignity again to visit
settlements of this area and to read through reports for the
population already on the certain themes, with certain, to them the
developed theses, about spirit of the basis of the state, about
problems of " great emancipating east-Asian war ", " about the new
light order ". I, certainly, have "willingly accepted this offer, but
? it was necessary to be ill urgently "fever" and to postpone this
special trip for uncertain time. Fortunately, the nature then rendered
to me service: such strong buran has risen, that for some days any
communication with settlements has been interrupted. For this time I
also have developed the mentioned above regulations about rates and
programs. 
 
In May I managed to persuade the heads to enable me again to visit
schools as the auditor and chairman of examination board. This "audit"
in the greater degree has emphasized all importance of my
conversations with the population (during my first trip) in sense of
realization of the planned purposes and problems. Examinations have
shown, that my conversations with pupils and with teachers have not
gone to waste: children meaningly understood questions on the purpose,
problems of school, the future of our Native land. 
 
Also years pedagogical rates in the summer have been organized. By
conversations with the counselor of the governor I managed to inspire
an idea, that we Southern - Argunskaja province should be advanced in
sense of education of weights and that programs of our schools should
be constructed on the data of the newest pedagogical idea ? as in
Japan. Words " as in Japan " - have solved the problem, and it was
authorized to me to open pedagogical rates for teachers. Lecture on
pedagogics, the general, experimental and pedagogical psychology,
didactics and techniques of Russian and arithmetics had to read to me
itself. The so-called civil morals managed to be brought to
nothing. The Japanese language which my "counselor" at rates read the
Tori-dignity, borrowed one of the central places, and it was dangerous
to lift a question on his restriction: all peoples of East Asia are
obliged to know language of "leader". In connection with reading of
pedagogical disciplines by me were arranged of conversation on every
possible special questions. All participants of rates wrote reports
which understood at special conferences, demonstration lessons were
arranged also. I had been organized also teacher's chorus. Did not
drive us and "sacrificial" works after a case when on the requirement
of the young teacher of local Japanese school to leave all of us and
to wash a school porch I has answered - " teachers are not brisk and
make it cannot ". This teacher whom teachers joking have nicknamed "
our lovely fury ", has become my most malicious enemy and has played
subsequently a known role in my arrest. 
 
Rates have pulled together all of us in one Russian teacher's family,
as was showed then at final session with participation of the maximum
Japanese authorities which have paid attention to only Russian
painting of rates, but too late: special performances of the counselor
of the governor of. Fudzita, speaking to us about a direction of
activity of Russian school in sense of education of our children
conscious citizens " great Manchzhudigo ", the pedagogical commission
coming from capital led by "minister" of national education (the chief
of Department of the Ministry of safety), it is rather explanatory the
made reports on value of civil morals specially sent on business of
Hajlara persons, - nothing could "recolour" our teachers in desirable
painting; they have parted on the schools to work for the blessing of
dear Fatherland which sooner or later we shall get again. 
 
Last day works of rates as I already spoke, authorities had been
organized special meeting with " a cup of tea " at uchastiii all
higher authorities of our province led by the governor. At meeting us
convinced, that Manchzhudigo - second our native land on which service
we should prepare for our children in view of a rising sun (" light
from the east! "), also that for final destruction of enemies of
humanity - anglo-saxons and their allies - it is necessary to finish
sacred war with the victorious end and then there will come world
peace, under one roof (" Hakko isi-u ") the heroic nation jamato; for
this purpose we should write in our hearts and hearts of our children:
" All on amplification of fighting power Nippon! " And " the Life and
death with Nippon! " 
 
The first I have expressed and, having overlooked care, have hotly
declared: " In hearts of truly Russian people, not traitors of the
Fatherland, by fiery letters it is written: "Native land", and any
sufferings cannot extinguish in us this great word - the Native land -
Rus, we its children and the primary goal of our Russian school -
education in our children of consciousness of an accessory to it ". On
the remark the Imura-dignity, that at us is not present the native
land, that Russia does not exist, I with not smaller fervour have
answered: " Russia as the greatest country in the world, never died
and will not die. She was ill, but this illness will even more glorify
her ". Last my words were: " Now with you the inspector of schools
Trehrechja speaks not, and all pedagogical personnel of these schools,
speaks all cossacks Trehrechja! " 
 
On the offer of the governor to express to all participants of the
rates, as the first director Verhkulinskoj of the raised school
Alexander Ivanovich Aleksandrov, the person with higher education, the
old, skilled teacher selflessly devoted to school, but cautious has
acted. In the speech it has emphasized, that " the basic character
trait of the Russian teacher is nobleness and fidelity to precepts of
the best people of Russia, based on the truth. This truth -
indestructible power of soul of the Russian person even in falling
creating still the big glory for the Fatherland ". 
 
The following orator, director Lobdarinskoj of school Jakovlev, the
person noble, direct and hot, has declared: " Let rasterzajut me in
scraps, but the traitor of the native land I shall not be! " All other
teachers more or less definitely also have directly supported me, and
thus this " the governmental impact " as we joking spoke, has received
worthy repulse. 
 
Have arranged a teacher's party in the evening. Almost all the night
long we sang, played, danced, and from next day teachers began to part
in the places. 
 
After significant " cups of tea " our teacher's family has felt the
even greater unification in realization of our primary goals, but for
me there have come heavy days and as the friends most devoted to me
spoke me, - above my head the thunder-storm has hung. 
 
The attitude to me the chief of military mission colonel Taki first of
all has sharply changed. It, apparently, searched a case to destroy
me. At once it makes it could not, as it would break bases of
"principles" of a state policy of independence intended for all world,
freedom of national belief, creeds and so forth not Asian peoples
living in Manchzhudigo, and would find out true, secret plans of the
Japanese authorities - to depersonalize us and to transform into the
instrument of struggle first of all with our Native land. 
 
Completely intolerable the attitude to me the Imura-dignity and other
commanding persons of the Japanese nationality has become also. This
hostile attitude was expressed first of all that refused to me in the
credit for purchase of textbooks and manuals for schools. With the big
work it was possible to me to borrow seven hundred gobi in a society
of education, to enclose the money and, having taken advantage besides
credit in Harbin, to get there the necessary books and grants in
bookshops "Science", "Economy", etc. (Some of these shops I has
remained should, as not all schools have covered the debts for the
books released by him on credit.) Besides provincial management has
given up to me in the credit for repair of schools and only due to
persevering requests, reports and so forth has been released ? 2000
gobi on repair of all sixteen Russian schools Trehrechja whereas only
on repair of one school in Dragotsenke the sum more than five thousand
gobi was necessary. At me did not remain other output as soon as to
persuade the counselor of the governor to give me business trip, to
ask the population to take part under repair schools. I understood all
difficulty of my mission as the population already granted the certain
sum on the maintenance of schools as excessive taxes. But there are no
borders to kindness of Russian soul: the population met me, and all
schools by the autumn have been repaired. Released "credit" in 2000
gobi has been received by me and rozdan to atamans of settlements only
after three months - in the winter. 
 
The hostile attitude to me of the Japanese authorities was expressed
even in trifles. I have arrived to cold autumn evening in Dragotsenku
from Harbin with textbooks. Was more than thirty boxes with books
which should be unloaded in a court yard of provincial management as
the Imura-dignity has not allowed me to bring in them to a premise
till the morning, and manuals have remained for the night in a court
yard therefore the part of writing-books, pencils and so forth has
been plundered at night. Next day to me did not give workers to bring
in books to a pantry, and it was necessary to me itself, with the help
of one of Russian employees of provincial management Baksheeva, to
drag weights under skeptical remarks boek. In a pantry textbooks have
lain some time, but were then thrown out in a corridor of management,
and only due to intervention of the governor I managed to combine
again them in a former place - too itself. 
 
Operating conditions became, thus, all nevynosimee, and I have decided
to leave service and to leave back for Harbin. But it was completely
impossible to make it: not only the inspector, but also the ordinary
teacher, under fear of reprisals, had no right to leave service
without valid excuse. An output was not. To serve I farth could
not. Dismissals did not give me, and at the same time danger to be the
arrested person has increased. Then I have understood, that appeared
in a trap. 
 
Soon after a case with books I was caused by the chief trehrechenskoj
military mission and has told, that it is extremely pleased with my
work and that it has decided to give to me more responsible work on
the organization of a society of Russian youth in Trehreche, and I
personally should not constrain myself means. I at the presence of the
senior employee of mission Boris Izmaylov have declared the chief,
that with pleasure I accept this offer, but any sums personally for
myself categorically I refuse, and if means for purchase of library, a
movie camera and so forth I shall accept only accountable sums will be
necessary. The chief of mission, obviously, has understood, that me to
not buy for any money and after that me have completely debarred from
the organization of a society of youth. It has been organized besides
me under the plan developed Kiovakaj. 
 
After all this operating condition have become for me even more
intolerable, and I waited for the worse - arrest, but arrest secret,
treacherous, down to murder. 
 
At the end of December I have been invited by presidium of again
organized society trehrechenskoj youth to a celebration of opening of
this society. 
 
Behind the long tables covered with green cloth in the form of the
letter "i" in a hall of local school, all local heads sat led by the
governor. Among invited were ataman Trehrechja colonel Sergeev and
decent trehrechenskih churches archpriest of Procopies
Makoveev. Members of the Society of youth led by chairman Boris
Izmaylov, numbers faced to tables in the middle of a hall. All in the
Cossack forms, young, harmonous, strong combined. Were among them and
the girl. 
 
At their kind, heart it was poured by blood. What for them have
resulted here? And to listen to instructive speeches about their
future activity, as the best synov the country which have sheltered
them - second native land Manchzhudigo. Then to them gradually and
cautiously with only Japanese cunning will inspire fierce hatred to
the native land by an illustration of full lawlessness of Russian
people, it tjagchajshih sufferings, bloody terror and persecutions on
belief of fathers, unprecedented destructions in the field of
transport, technics, the industries. Finally to corrupt and etch from
soul of Russian youth the slightest display of love to the Fatherland,
heads of the Society will hide first of all the truth about it as it
is done by Japanese and in Harbin: for storage of the Soviet
literature or hearing of radio it is necessary arrest with inevitable
consequences - pobojami, tortures, down to a poisoning or execution. 
 
As a result of such "education" ordinarily ugly type skrytnogo, the
cowardly, intimidated person, in soul hating the enslavers is
developed, and is obvious - clapping and shouting him through tears
"banzaj". 
 
Opening ceremony of the Society of youth began, as it happened always
at ceremonies, hymns of Japan and Manchzhudigo, bows to national flags
and aside residences of emperors of these countries, and also aside
temple Kenkoku-simbio devoted to goddess Amaterasu, and performance of
the representative of youth which after deep bow aside commanding
persons, has read through just received of Sin-tsina, capitals
Manchzhudigo, " Manual loyal ". In the first item of this "Manual", by
the way, it is spoken: " ? we, loyal, should esteem reverentially
goddess Amaterasu Oomikami ". The same representative after reading
"Manual" has read through on behalf of youth, the oath promise of
members of the Society to follow the instructions stated in "Manual",
hence, and reverentially to esteem goddess Amaterasu. I have
involuntarily looked on about. Decent, trying to define the impression
made on him by these words, but about. Procopies, unfortunately, sat
with the lowered head; then I have transferred a sight at the ataman
and youth. On their persons hopeless humility, indifference and
boredom has been written. 
 
Speeches have begun. The first were spoken by the governor. It thanked
youth for creditable patriotism and fidelity to principles of spirit
of the basis of the state and has called further not in words, and in
practice to prove the fidelity great Nippon and Manchzhudigo, as to
the new native land, active participation in construction of the state
in the name of a victory over anglo-saxons and their allies. 
 
An inexpressible pain responded in soul of the Russian person of a
word - " and their allies ". All of us, except for traitors, informers
and traitors, with the latent indignation listened to these words for
we knew, about what allies speak us the Japanese authorities. Some of
the cowardliest among us or frightened, tested on themselves charm of
Japanese "teapots", "mattresses", wooden shpilek under nails and so
forth, at these words, the truth, with stisnutymi teeth, even applaud
and shout "banzaj". 
 
The chief of military mission spoke about "honorary duties" of youth
to enter the "voluntary" military groups which are having for an
object military preparation for protection of northern boundaries
Manchzhudigo. " You should be proud, - it spoke, - that authorities
give you a honourable opportunity as the award, to act in military
voluntary groups and in the future in practice to prove the fidelity
and loyalty to your second native land, great Manchzhudigo ". 
 
Yes, Russian youth should be proud, more truly, has been obliged to be
proud under fear of tortures, that executioners of Russian emigration
on behalf of these authorities, allowed it a "honourable" opportunity
to change to the native land, meanly to betray her and to thrust a
knife in a back to the brother, the Russian person. 
 
The chief of garrison spoke about successes " heroic valorous
nipponskoj to imperial army " and has expressed confidence, that all
milliard population of East Asia with the concealed breath watches
actions of the liberators, nipponskih eagles, heroes of the Pearl
harbour, Philippines and Solomon islands. " We with a laughter have
met the application of Americans for their intentions in the near
future to land on Philippines, - it spoke. - And if only anglo-saxons
will dare to come nearer to coast of independent Philippines, our
heroic invincible fleet will put the enemy such crushing blow, that at
him further any hunting to deal with the invincible nation jamato "
will be gone. Addressing to youth, it has told: " you are happy, that
have an opportunity in practice to keep oath promise to give the young
forces to service to your second native land in spirit of the basis of
the state. I thank you ". 
 
Approximately the same was spoken also by other commanding persons of
the Japanese nationality. The head of ceremony, with the bow put at
such cases, has approached to me, inviting me to express. I have
specified eyes on about. Decent, it to speak has refused. The ataman
has acted. With hardly concealable confusion, with hopeless humility
of the person who has got in a trap, but under fear to appear even in
the worse position, it has told approximately the following: " Pride
fills heart at a kind you, good fellows, worthy synov your fathers and
grandfathers! " In the further speech it has called youth to give the
forces on service to the state which has sheltered them and to justify
the Cossack honour performance of the sacred debt to the second native
land exact performance of all paragraphs " Manuals loyal ". 
 
" What is it? Misunderstanding, the cunning inspired by fear for the
well-being, or conscious infringement of fidelity to the Fatherland? "
- has flashed at me in a head, and I have asked a word. 
 
- our duty while we live here, - has told I, - to carry out
  requirements of the state concerning civil duties if these duties do
  not contradict our Russian conscience, and also to aspire to be a
  healthy part of this state organism in interests not only our,
  Russian, but also all peoples living in Manchzhudigo, and it you
  keep the Cossack honour. But first of all you should store piously
  precepts of your fathers and grandfathers: under no circumstances to
  not betray the Native land, to not change to it and your belief. Do
  not forget who you! Highly carry the Russian banner and be proud of
  the rank - Russian. Remember - you are waited with the Native
  land. Be worthy synami her. Traitors are not necessary for it! Study
  to develop in itself hardness of will in aspiration to know great
  last and greater future of your Native land. Your way lays there -
  on the West! At last my words the chief of military mission
  something has told to the governor. Last has risen and, having
  addressed to youth, has declared: " Once again I express the
  gratitude to you that you have understood references to you of
  commanding persons and with eagerness execute the duty. All
  this. The meeting is ended. I ask all to remain on a cup of tea ". 
 
All have risen and were directed to one of classes where has been
served tea and zakusochnyj a table. 
 
I have left in a corridor. Here the counselor of the governor has
approached to me and has asked: 
 
- That you wanted to tell in the word? 
 
- And that, as you would tell on my place in relation to the Native
  land, - I have answered. 
 
The counselor has departed me, and I have left on a school
porch. Silent cloudy weather. It is lazy flakes the snow falls. Around
all is white. On soul it is restless. Any presentiment compresses
heart. It would be desirable to express, share ideas. And I have
decided to leave immediately for one of settlements of my area - Key. 
 
Vigorously ran Cossack the horsy, zaprjazhennye in convenient sanki on
which I sat with the young cheerful cossack, all road sung the Cossack
songs. His young fervent voice was given by an echo in mountains
between which on a narrow valley the road strewn lightly just with a
dropped out snow laid. Has blown into an easy breeze. Because of
mountains the grey-lilac cloud has seemed - there was a snow. The wind
has amplified and has soon passed to the present Siberian buran. 
 
- And ? and, milaj!.. The coachman Shouted, shaking by a whip, and
  horses have run at a gallop, but have soon gone at a walk - the road
  began to rise uphill. I of tears from sledge also have gone on
  foot. Ideas one replacing another rushed in a head. That seemed to
  me, that sufferings were terminated and I go somewhere to a unknown
  distance where I am expected with new free, joyful activity pictures
  of the Native land as if I there among native people close to heart
  seemed; but the terrible validity wakened me from this pleasant
  dream in reality and then it seemed, that me pursue riding in hated
  sharp caps. Heart is compressed from an intolerable pain. 
 
" What for I here? What for I have arrived from lovely free
fantastic-fine Hong Kong here, to this disgusting terrible country
where all is based on provocation, change, treachery and lie? White
mountains are seen. Behind them - the Native land. To leave all and to
go there? But whether will understand there me, the emigrant,
"belobandita"? No, there me will accept for the Japanese spy and will
kill as the traitor of the Native land. What to do? Where to run? You
will not escape anywhere from this terrible prison Manchzhudigo, and I
have decided to act openly against severe Japanese authorities in
protection of the belief and a rank - Russian to remove from myself a
shameful nickname - " loyal the Japanese colony - "empires"
Manchzhudigo ". 
 
It was absolutely dark, when have arrived to settlement Key. 
 
After a drunk pile of fine tincture, hot pel'menis and tea with honey
I was warmed and with special high spirits began to tell to the
hospitable teacher and its husband diakonu Mamontovu all to what
witness at meeting in Dragotsenke. This conversation has calmed me, as
I have understood, that I am among native Russian people which
understand me. 
 
Next day I was present at lessons after which had conversation with
pupils. Feeling, that last time I see them, I have enclosed in the
words all love to them, all aspiration to embody in their young hearts
the most expensive - love to Fatherland. 
 
After a dinner to me have submitted change of horses, and I have gone
further - to settlement Oak. Has stopped at principal Gantimurova. In
the evening during conversation with it I have understood, as it
entirely on my party and understands me. 
 
After lessons I had conversation with pupils. As the consciousness was
sad, that last time I see these lovely, become native children's
persons. But at the same time other, deep, joyful feeling spoke about
other future free life when I shall speak again with Russian children
about great Fatherland. 
 
Next day early in the morning I have gone to settlement Top -
Urga. Here, as well as in first two, talked with studying and pupils,
and has been invited to a meeting new, 1943 arranged in local school
in the evening. 
 
All eminent cossacks has gathered led by the ataman, his counselor -
the Japanese and the principal Thin, without kazachek. Up to "meeting"
visitors sat on benches and is direct on a floor before brightly
flaring oven in which the birch and deciduous fire wood issuing a
pleasant smell of pitch cracked. Spoke about war here, in the east,
and in the far West. 
 
Reading one only the Japanese newspaper in Russian "Time" which joking
named the newspaper we "Tell lies", we should represent all events in
false light. Besides these events presented us in illumination of
every possible editions Kiovakaj, reports and instructive speeches of
various representatives, delegates, the instructors calling us to
trust to authorities ? under fear of reprisals, and thus not only
trehrechenskoe cossacks, but also all emigration in Manchzhudigo was
in full ignorance concerning events occuring in the world. Us all time
deceived, but any internal feeling protested against this deceit, and
we began to study to read the newspaper " between lines ". We found in
it particles of the truth, discussed them on every possible lady,
dreamt, exaggerated, but all this did by whisper, secretly,
cautiously, remembering, as walls have ears. We felt like deaf, blind,
badgered, frightened "teapots" people, defenceless and deprived of
civil rights emigrants. Some of us did not maintain this slow torture
and mad, committed suicide, or openly opposed the executioners and
perished in torture chambers and prisons. But very much many were
restrained, suppressed in itself pride and advantage of the Russian
person and gradually the life and death with great Nippon turned to
ugly type of the political simulator, in speculators and hypocrites,
secretly in soul hating, spitefully despising, openly unctuously
smiling, in three deaths bending the back and with stisnutymi a teeth
shouting "banzaj" and "! " Were also such which went in the Soviet
consulates - but only not in Harbin - here we bypassed this
establishment for some quarters - were done "kvitpoddannnymi", but it
kvitpoddanstvo became for these people a source still the big
sufferings: them drove, in every possible way oppressed, and in ours "
fertile Manchzhudigo " they generally perished or felt like, as on a
volcano. Our enemies spoke and wrote, that in the USSR people groans
and stretches the hands with entreaty about the help on the West and
on the east, with trembling expecting " light from the east ", that
Russian people freezes in " Russia brought by a snow " (" Has brought
you a snow, Russia! "). But we trusted, that our people has kept hot
Russian heart under this cold cover and waits for the moment when any
unknown incomprehensible force, any light will direct the hot beam on
this cold cover, will kindle it and again over the light of beams of
the sun of the truth in Russia will be triumphed with spring. Wrote
and spoke to us, that enough an insignificant push from the outside -
and all construction of the USSR will fail. And here, this moment has
come: Germany has untied war from the USSR. Germans have reached the
Volga, and expected by enemies of our Fatherland of action " the
external push " still was not. And then gradually in weight of
emigration hearings began to penetrate, that Hitler gives Russian
cities to the generals, and Odessa has presented Romanians; in streets
of Harbin local Germans began to sing: " Volga, Volga, mother native,
Volga - the German river " ? - we almost everything, except for
traitors, somehow at once have understood all. Eyes have opened,
hearts ? the Mean enemy have swung open has conceived to win our
Fatherland! Having understood it, we have hidden. Whisper, under the
strict secret transferred each other all new and new hearings about
immense sufferings of native Russian people and all peoples in the
USSR in a vice of the bloody enemy - hitlerite fascism. The anger,
fiery hatred filled our hearts, but we were powerless something to
make, as Kiovakaj, despised by us Kiovakaj, daily shouted by radio
naming, traitors of those who supposes in the heart of sympathy to the
USSR and doubts concerning an invincible axis - Italy, Germany,
Japan. We frightened, badgered, depersonalized, "heeded" these
speeches, drawing in the imagination of a picture of medieval tortures
in the Japanese torture chambers, and with eyes burning with hatred
shouted "banzaj". 
 
It began not known what ways up to us to reach joyful hearings: " the
German drive " ? " the German runs " ? all Have been forgotten - and "
constant workers'-and-peasants' revolts ", " eternal famine " in
Russia, and "persecutions" on Church and Solonevich with
"concentration camps", and the everything else, and our own
lawlessness - the German runs ? the German drive from limits of our
Fatherland! Looking back on the parties with the concealed breath we
transferred each other these joyful to conduct, in soul blessing
heroes-fighters. Together with this pleasure in us the belief that
there will come such moment when all will be destroyed, erased
separating us from the Native land of a barrier began to inflame
gradually.. 
 
So, the "eminent" cossacks of settlement was going to meet Top - Urga
at local school new, 1943. Cossacks sat on benches or is direct on a
floor before brightly flaring oven, smoked, looking as badgered
wolves, against each other and ? on Japanese with secret hope to hear
any news about "there". We felt, that news are, but were afraid to
speak about them: before us sits, as a cataract on an eye,
"counselor", yes the opportunity of presence among us informers is not
excluded also, but all of us somehow managed frequently in allegoric
sense to transfer each other, that "our" "them" beat ? have expelled
from such city. And it is necessary our owners (Japanese) hardly:
"they" (Americans) have returned such island, etc., and one cossack
has whispered to me on an ear: " bombard their main city ? " and I
have understood about what main city there is a speech. 
 
About twelve one o'clock in the morning all of us have sat down a
table. Huge pieces of meat, pies and vodka whence have appeared. Hours
have punched midnight. All have lifted wine-glasses, glasses, a cup
with vodka and have risen. The first toast has been given to me. I
have congratulated cossacks happy New Year and on new happiness which
expects us there, on the dear Native land. Feeling, that I start to
play with fire, I, in an emphasis looking on the Japanese, continued:
" you are proud of the heroic native land and feats of your nice
eagles, I am proud of the great Fatherland, and is fast nastanet time
when victorious banners our nice polkov will hover in many capitals of
Europe and ? Asia? " - has somehow escaped at me involuntarily. At
these words everything, trying to not look against each other, were
silent and only one old cossack, mine the neighbour, has whispered to
me on an ear: " Thanks, the inspector, has done an ill turn ? " I also
whisper has answered: " And to you thanks, that you have understood me
". 
 
Behind a New Year's dinner I have told to the principal and his dear
the spouse, that last time I see them as has decided to act openly
against the requirement of the Japanese authorities reverentially to
esteem goddess Amaterasu as loyal Manchzhudigo. Director has from its
part expressed indignation concerning this requirement, but has
advised me to be cautious and to not endanger the life. 
 
This very day I have left in Dragotsenku where has reached late at
night. 
 
On January, 2, 1943, early in the morning me have demanded in military
mission. The chief has met me very kindly and, having stretched to me
the text " Manuals loyal ", has told: " Here, the inspector,
"manual". Recently have received from the center. Be so kind as to
dispatch his directors of schools with your instruction on his
unconditional carrying out during a life ". I have easy answered: 
 
- Forgive, mister the chief, it I can not make. 
 
- That is how cannot? - it was surprised. 
 
- the First item of "Manual" contradicts my belief. 
 
- be more precisely expressed, the inspector, - has strictly told the
  chief. 
 
- In the first item of "Manual" all is spoken, that loyal emperor
  Manchzhudigo, or, more precisely, loyal Tennoo, should esteem
  goddess Amaterasu reverentially. 
 
- Well?.. 
 
- First, we the Russian emigrants having emigrant passports, do not
  count ourselves loyal ? 
 
- you think what speak? - the chief of mission has strictly
  interrupted me. 
 
- Second, - I continued, - reverential reverence of goddess Amaterasu
  contradicts main principles of christianity. 
 
- I ask you, you think what speak? It even more strictly has
  interrupted me. 
 
- Yes, I think, - trying to be as it is possible more easy, I have
  answered, - and your order I can not execute. 
 
For about a minute the chief of mission looked at me silently,
precisely wishing to inspire to me an idea on absolute inadmissibility
not only to speak, but also to think in negative sense of things to
which the sacred name of emperor is connected. 
 
- State in writing your ideas, - it has told, rising. - Good-bye. 
 
This very day I have written and have sent it the corresponding
application and began to wait for the further events which developed
with lightning speed. 
 
After a dinner of the same day I have visited the counselor of the
governor to whom has declared the same, as to the chief of mission. It
was surprised not less and became all over again friendly, and then
strictly to convince me of absolute inadmissibility of such
application. 
 
- Tell, mister the counselor, your goddess Amaterasu exists? - I have
  asked it. 
 
- Yes, certainly, - it has answered with the tone which is not
  admitting objections. 
 
- she Also lives?.. 
 
- Lives there, in the sky. 
 
- Hence, - I continued, - if we, Christians, we shall agree with such
  statement should recognize existence of two gods - the god and
  goddesses that contradicts main principle of christianity -
  Edinobozhiju. 
 
- us it does not concern also this question us does not interest, -
  the counselor has answered. - Goddess Amaterasu praroditelnitsa an
  imperial dynasty. To reject her is means to reject all our political
  system and main principle of our state - divinity of his beginning
  that is impossible. The goddess of sun Amaterasu - spirit of the
  basis of our state, soul of people, light of history of the nation
  jamato and heart divine Tennoo. 
 
- Tell to me, mister the counselor, - continued I, - as we should
  understand words - " light from the east "? 
 
- This light proceeds from goddess Amaterasu Oomikami and in this
  light by a principle " Hakko ichi-u ", i.e. " all under one roof ",
  all nationalities of great East Asia, including the Russian
  emigrants, as the fifth nationality of empire Manchzhudigo should
  stay. You, certainly, can have the gods - the Christ, Krishna, the
  Buddha, Konfutsija, Magometa is your private business, but all these
  your gods stay in view of the great goddess of sun Amaterasu
  Oomikami. 
 
- Under one roof of the nation jamato, - I have involuntarily smiled. 
 
- Yes, certainly, under a roof liderstvujushchego people, - it is
  proud the counselor has answered. 
 
- it is dexterously told! - I was not kept. 
 
- That, you disagree with it? - it somehow has mysteriously smiled. 
 
- Yes, certainly, mister the counselor, - has hotly answered I, -
  everything, that you have told, absolutely contradicts all my
  belief, as Christian and the European. You can speak it to Chinese,
  Mongols, korejtsam, and that is cautious, but not to us, the Russian
  which has been brought up completely on other beginnings. 
 
- the Inspector, think again, - the counselor has softly told. - you
  have followed a dangerous way. 
 
- Yes, I know it, and nevertheless I shall not recede the words. 
 
- you the official also are obliged to execute the duty of the
  official, - the counselor strictly has told. 
 
- I have the maximum duty, - I have answered, - a duty of the
  Christian and the Russian patriot. 
 
- And if you will force? 
 
- Than? Tortures? - I have smiled and heart was involuntarily
  compressed from a pain. 
 
- That you, that you.. - the counselor has thought suddenly, - it is
  not necessary to be afraid of it. 
 
- I am not afraid, - I have answered easy, - but if my guilty language
  under influence of tortures will renounce true ? to this you do not
  trust. I shall lie ? 
 
- it is not necessary so to speak, - the counselor has stopped me. 
 
- Tell to me, - I continued, - that seems to you more valuable: the
  truth or lie? 
 
- Certainly the truth, - the counselor has answered. - we respect and
  we appreciate truthful and fair people. 
 
- Then what for you force me to be dishonest? 
 
In the further conversation with the counselor I have in detail stated
the point of view on value of orthodox belief in histories of
development of our state and have confirmed full determination under
no circumstances to not change to the belief. The counselor has
listened to me and has told: 
 
- I Thank you. I did not know, that so the belief of the Russian
  person is deep. I have understood you and I shall try to make for
  you everything, that on me depends, that the higher authorities, as
  well as I have understood you. 
 
Has already darkened, when I have come back home. The presentiment
something uncertain-terrible compressed my heart. I have understood,
that there was a dangerous way, but at the same time inexpressible
exciting pleasure to the deepest hiding places of soul spoke, that
this way is true. It was terrible from consciousness of inevitability
of external sufferings - arrest, tortures, but this fear lit up with
the inexplicable light which was starting with the depths of soul,
from heart. 
 
I felt in myself two persons - external and internal, unearthly,
soznavaemuju heart, and the fear of arrest has gradually grown gim in
view of this internal person - souls. 
 
I have left in the sadik. Above a head flickering depth of the night
sky, usejannogo stars reached. The feeling of eternity, boundlessness
of the world and consciousness of negligibility of our tiny planet -
the Earth at the same time reflecting and expressing in as the drop of
water reflects ocean, this boundless world, has torn off me from
surrounding conditions and has transferred my consciousness to this
boundless eternity. All seemed significant and native - and the fallen
asleep village in view of cold flickering multi-coloured sparks of a
snow, and removed by hoarfrost derevtsa, planted by me in the summer,
and far sonorous bark of a dog, and the hills which are vaguely
growing white in a twilight of night, and even a cold stone at my
porch - all reflected in itself the world of eternity not transmitted
by human language, beauty and truths. 
 
Not feeling a frost, I looked at the sky where my soul
lasted. Magnificent Orion regally shining by the stars, the far
majestic sun - Sirius, Polluks, Kastor, Algol and millions other
shining worlds, spoke about other, finer, than terrestrial, a life
reflected in human soul, in depths of heart and reason. And whether it
is possible, whether is allowable to offer this world of eternal
beauty for the sake of time, illusive pleasures of the ground? Is not
present - better death! 
 
The counselor of the governor up to conversation with me has
dispatched " Manual loyal " to atamans and through about. Decent - to
priors of churches of settlements Trehrechja. 
 
Some of cossacks have learned the maintenance of "Manual" and in
pereinachennom a kind have transferred anothers. Cossacks began to
worry: " As! To make of us Japanese - citizens of their emperor, to
force to bow then to their cross-eyed goddess! Never! Any loyal
Japanese passports and matrasok we do not recognize! In zhist! Better
death! And to children we shall not allow, and in their school we
shall not start up, let houses " better sit. 
 
- whether the Truth, darling, - has addressed to me one old woman,
  having met with me in the street, - that Japanese carry an integral
  steamship from the Japan and, hear, these gods will put to us in
  tserkvah? 
 
I have tried to calm the old woman that is a lie, but she has shaken a
head and, wiping tears, has spoken: 
 
- Is not present, the sonny, is the truth. CHat our muzhiks will not
  stir in vain, - and the old woman has departed me, speaking about
  itself: " the Doomsday has come ? Antihrist has arisen ? " 
 
In the evening I was invited to itself by the chief of military
mission. 
 
- you heard? - it has addressed to me. The population worries ?
  someone, obviously, with any purpose distributes false rumours. 
 
- to Any purpose in these hearings, certainly, no, - I have answered
  the chief. The population worries because, that you want to make of
  Russian emigrants of citizens of emperor Manchzhudigo. I spoke you
  and the counselor of the governor have warned, that of this question
  to joke it is impossible. Russian emigrants, I speak about those who
  has not changed the russkosti, and such the majority, never supposed
  ideas, that they have for ever lost the Native land. Your
  requirement - is equivalent to death as understood so
  vernopoddanstvo contacts reverential reverence of goddess Amaterasu
  that contradicts this russkosti. 
 
- you spoke it also to me and to the counselor of the governor, - the
  chief has told to me, - I hope, that will not speak the population
  for it is connected to personal danger to you ? fatal ? - it has
  told separately, looking steady on me. - I believe, you will not
  make it, that is why poezzhajte and calm the population. Cossacks
  know you, trust you. It is known to me. 
 
I with pleasure have agreed to make this trip and to prove to the
population all absurd of distributed false rumours, but have warned: 
 
- I shall calm People, but concerning reverential reverence of goddess
  Amaterasu as citizens of emperor Manchzhudigo, I agree to differ. 
 
The chief of mission by a long, penetrating sight has looked at me and
has silently made: 
 
- your own well-being depends On you in the future. Laws of our empire
  are more strict concerning execution of a civic duty, than you
  think. Remember it, but at present it is important to calm the
  population. It can make only Russian to which trust Russian. I have
  terminated. Good-bye. 
 
Next day I had conversation with the counselor of the governor all on
the same theme - an inaccuracy of opinion of the maximum Japanese
authorities, that it is possible to make loyal emperor Manchzhudigo of
Russian emigrants and in this connection to force them to esteem
reverentially goddess Amaterasu that contradicts bases of
christianity. 
 
The counselor has answered me: 
 
- As to citizenship of Russian emigrants this question while remains
  open. To tell the truth, in "Manual" there is an expression: " we,
  loyal emperor Manchzhudigo ? ", but these words concern to
  indigenous population of our empire, instead of to Russian. 
 
- And if these words have no attitude to us, Russian why you force us,
  the Russian population, serving in your establishments and even
  pupils, daily to repeat these words at morning ceremonies? - I have
  asked. 
 
- And it is a duty of respect for the hospitable country, where do you
  live. 
 
- To name itself loyal emperor and to not consider itself them -
  whether there is this hypocrisy, mister the counselor? - I have
  objected. 
 
- the Word "loyal" needs to be understood in sense truly
  ispolnjajushchy the duties before the state, - after some meditation
  the counselor somehow has uncertainly answered me. - Loyal - means
  understanding the accessory to family of peoples Manchzhudigo, the
  empire constructed on the divine beginnings in view of solar goddess
  Amaterasu, to esteem which all nationalities Manchzhudigo, including
  Russian, as the fifth nationality of this country are obliged. 
 
- we realize ourselves here, time visitors who sooner or later should
  return on the Native land. 
 
After these my words the counselor, strongly having reddened, but
doing efforts above itself to restrain, has told: 
 
- the Inspector, you have followed a dangerous way. You meaningly
  break bases of our state policy in Manchzhudigo. I thank you for
  your frankness, for honesty of your belief, but I believe, that you
  argue in a similar way only with me, instead of propagandize openly
  your ideas among the population. I believe, you will not rise on
  this extremely dangerous way, well knowing consequences of such
  erroneous act; besides I want to tell to you some words concerning
  wrong understanding you of true value of goddess Amaterasu, - the
  counselor continued. - Reverence of goddess Amaterasu is not
  religion, and the certificate of respect to political I build our
  state. Reverence of our goddess you express the duty of gratitude to
  our country. 
 
- we recognize existence only Uniform timeless and
  vneprostranstvennogo the God. As there can not be two ideas of
  goods, validity, love in the maximum understanding of this word, two
  ideas of beauty so cannot be and two ideas of the God. Therefore the
  God Is uniform. A recognition of existence still goddesses we break
  main principle of our belief - Unity, Edinobozhie, that is
  absolutely inadmissible. Whether we nonexistent can esteem, what is
  not present? In that case we should break elementary requirements of
  decency, sincerity, nobleness. You want it? Want from our party of a
  deceit, hypocrisy, pretence? I personally cannot admit it. 
 
The counselor for about a minute sat silently and, as if collecting
the thoughts, has told: 
 
- I understand you, but ? similar reasonings break our idea of solar
  goddess Amaterasu Oomikami which, similarly to a sunlight, should
  light up the world, and in this light, in light Amaterasu all
  peoples should be united and live under one roof with the great
  nation jamato. And however ? - the counselor has smiled, - we touch
  with you such depths about which, I hope, you will not speak with
  the population. I heard, that the chief of mission asks you to go
  round settlements Trehrechja and to disseminate those foolish
  hearings which someone distributes. I too ask you - poezzhajte and
  make so that all was good. Good-bye. 
 
I have said goodbye to the counselor and have gone to father Procopy
Makoveevu. It sat in it is hot the heated room and saws hot tea with
red wine. 
 
- And, the inspector ? - welcomed it me. - Sit down. Whether want to
  tea? 
 
I have thanked it and have sat down to a table. Accepting a glass to
tea, has asked: 
 
- you have received "Manual", father Prokopy? 
 
- Yes, has received. 
 
- Well and how? 
 
- And what? Anything serious. I have deleted words: "goddess Amaterasu
  Oomikami" also has replaced with words: " the Lord of the God " -
  and business with the end. 
 
- And you have made it with is conducted the chief of mission? 
 
- whether Well here still with it is conducted ? it was necessary to
  disturb the chief such trifles! I such have not made anything. I
  only, as the orthodox priest ? 
 
- And you know, father Prokopy, - has smiled I, - that you have made
  state "crime". 
 
- That is ? as a crime?.. - it has turned pale. 
 
- And you talk to the chief of military mission, it will explain you. 
 
- Yes, well?!.. Then it is necessary to return ? to go, write, yet
  late. I in fact have dispatched fathers to priors "Manual" in the
  corrected kind! About, what I have done?! - poor father Prokopy
  worried, rising with a place. 
 
- Wait, do not worry, about. Procopies, - trying it to calm, I have
  told. - you have made correctly. Now it is necessary in common ? 
 
- Is not present, is not present ? - it worried more and more. - So I
  am impossible ? did not know ? have not thought ? 
 
Unfortunately, about. Decent did not listen to me and continued to
worry, has put on and together with me has left on street. Here I with
it have said goodbye and has gone to J.F.Tutovu, former director of
local school, the person with the big pedagogical experience, cultural
and sympathetic. It, his wife, Hope Mihajlovna and the daughter,
A.J.Skovorodnikova, the teacher of local school, understood me, always
responded on my sorrows and a difficult minute supported me the
friendly advice. I him have told all. Addressed by kind wishes this
very day by the evening I have gone to business trip. 
 
The first settlement where I have acted with an explanation " Manuals
loyal ", the settlement Ust-Kuli was. 
 
Unfortunately, was late when I have arrived, and the ataman has not
had time to notify all cossacks so on assembly has come to very few
people. 
 
I have in brief acquainted going with the purpose of my arrival - a
refutation of malicious hearings in connection with " Manual loyal "
and, having specified on necessity of performance of requirements of
the state concerning the civil duties which are not contradicting to
our Russian conscience, and nenarushenija public silence and the
order, I, having emphasized value of orthodox belief in histories of
our Native land, have told: 
 
- we Russian people also shall always stay such. We temporarily have
  lost the Native land, but we trust, that we shall soon get her
  again. Hence, we, as sons of Fatherland, let while disconnected with
  it, cannot accept any other citizenship and that to change to it. In
  what we can not change and belief orthodox that is why I have
  decided to petition before the higher authorities for change in
  Russian translation of the first item of "Manual" in which it is
  spoken about reverential reverence of goddess Amaterasu Oomikami
  loyal emperor Manchzhudigo. 
 
The principal in the performance has supported me, and all other
present, having thanked me, promised the encouragement. 
 
In the morning of the next day I have gone further to the big
settlement Top - Kuli. 
 
Fine lynx cheerfully run on well rolled winter road Cossack the
horsy. The frosty breeze burns the person. Snow open space around,
white hills, here and there trees, opushennye hoarfrost, cast any
uncertain grief and melancholy. On soul it is disturbing, but at the
same time it is somehow strange joyful: the beginning is necessary,
and necessary to struggle up to the end. 
 
According to the coachman, my yesterday's performance in Ust-Kuli
since early morning has flown about all settlement and, probably,
today it becomes known to the Japanese authorities. Something will be? 
 
Eve of Christmas was. Driving in village, I at once have felt approach
of a holiday: almost from all pipes the direct krasnovato-golden
columns of a smoke carrying in frosty air a smell of something tasty,
fragrant rose. Here and there burnt a bath. In windows from the solar
party pots with colors, fur-tree branches were seen svezhevystirannye
curtains. Windows from northern party have been tightened by ice. 
 
Director verhkulinskoj the raised school Alexander Ivanovich
Aleksandrov and his spouse Olga Nikolaevna have hospitably met me. Not
climbing down with sledge, I him have shouted: 
 
- Well, how? 
 
- did not read! - Alexander Ivanovich has joyfully answered me. - for
  you we wait. 
 
- Vish, that have invented, - Olga Nikolaevna has laughed, approaching
  to sledge and stretching me a hand, - the goddess any.. Have found
  fools ? 
 
I was surprised, that the counselor has dispatched " Manual loyal "
and to directors of schools, and has answered: 
 
- anything, we shall sustain also this Japanese impact. Not posramim
  advantages and honour of the Russian teacher and school. 
 
In the evening, after a night service, till late night we sat in heat
to the heated room for we expect with tasty pies. With us the ataman
of settlement was also. I asked it to collect at school all adult
population Top - Kuli for the second day of a holiday, on January, 8. 
 
With quiet feeling I have lain in the pure lovely mistress pure, warm
bed and at once have fallen asleep ?. Unknown force bore a boat on
which I sat, in the open storming sea. Lurid waves, appear, boiled
and, rising up, were broken in a fine dust. All is closer and closer a
boiling storming hell, a terrible roar, singing and groans, a
thunderous laughter disclosed me. 
 
- Pogibaju.. - I have thought, and suddenly the same unknown force has
  quickly turned my boat back and together with a huge wave has thrown
  out on black lonely rock in the middle of storming ocean. Something
  here approaches not clear, dark ? Quay? No. A shed? No, and my boat
  appeared together with me on this strange subject. Silently. The
  picture opens: the garden, is a lot of colors ? any high ears. The
  small small house rolls in blossoming bushes, and white church on a
  background of high trees. "Din-lin-din-bom" - hoot and bells ring. "
  Din-lin - light of reason " ? - is sung with cheerful sonorous
  children's voices. I have opened eyes. The room is lit poorly up by
  varying ruby light lampadki. Somewhere, it is probable on kitchen,
  birch fire wood crack in a plate. The tasty smell of fried game and
  pies reaches. " Volsvi with zvezdoju travel ? " hoots a bass any
  small, and to it echos, as a mosquito, a high treble the little
  girl: " Otrocha mlado, prevechnyj the God ". " With a holiday! " -
  Having been out of breath speaks in a deep voice small. - " Good
  fellows, guys, - the mistress cheerfully answers, well sing! " 
 
I have risen and began to put on. Soon whence from afar outside where
cracks severe night trehrechensky a frost, the first celebratory
impact of a bell has reached. 
 
Cossacks cheerfully carry out the big holidays and especially "eves",
i.e. patron saint's days. For some days kazachki pekut, cook, fry,
soar and clean, wash, decorate the houses, expecting visitors,
especially from "center" (Dragotsenka). On the eve muzhiks throw all
works, wash in black baths and go to a night service. In the morning
all family becomes on a pray before images, burn candles and lampadka,
stukajut foreheads cossacks about the floor just washed up and covered
with fragrant hay, reverentially sigh, and their example is followed
by children, at the same time mowing eyes on pies and the huge sizes
pies on a table. After that members of family congratulate each other
on a holiday and go in church. Women become with left, men from the
right party. The most "notable", rich cossacks - ahead, before the
altar. 
 
After impoverish everyone sit down a table. Here all - both, and fish,
and sweet dishes. The monstrous sizes pies and pies. Meat - a beef,
pork, mutton, a bird - is cut by huge pieces. Hot moves then. Vodka -
the sea razlivannoe. On formal dinner parties guests of honour of the
Japanese nationality borrow a red corner. Less honourable - Russian
"heads" - a number. Further away from a red (forward) corner - old
women, old men. Other invited both unbidden public and owners cost on
legs. All these so-called table, at all guests of honour and children,
and another's, directly hands are reserved by meal and borrow places
somewhere from a threshold, on an oven, on a bed or on a
floor. Cossacks drink much. Do not lag behind them and
kazachki. Anybody does not dare to refuse a pile or the whole glass -
"bottoms up"-. 
 
Similar parties not a rarity in Trehreche. They as if speak about a
full prosperity of local population. All these huge pies, pies and
other food are result, first, heavy work and unusual riches of area
and, second, that anything of invincible hospitality which is inherent
in general in all Russian people. In all will be given up by the
Russian person, will hide, will postpone the best piece by a holiday
if only to not strike the person in a dirty before expensive
visitors. Japanese see all this, both know, and are surprised - as
they limit needs of Russian people in Manchzhudigo as oppress their
any taxes, instructions, reprisals, prison - the Russian person,
remains to true traditions of the Native land. The Russian woman, the
mistress will sell something, will exchange, somewhere something will
get to it one known ways, and the holiday will celebrate on glory. In
Harbin, for example, last years by holidays to the population gave out
on distributive cards only vodka and bread, sometimes the most
vigorous got a slice of sausage, a half-rotten fish or something in
this sort. To get other products (a flour, meat, groats, tea, sugar
and so forth) it was forbidden under fear of reprisals, down to a
death penalty (for example, for rice): but mistresses somehow managed
to find everything, down to rice and, risking a life, arranged a
holiday and treated the same ? Japanese. This resource, skill from
anything to create something, this scope and breadth of Russian
ingenuity, this property of soul of the Russian person to Japanese to
not understand never. 
 
For the first day of Christmas I with Alexander Ivanovichem have gone
with visits to the most influential cossacks. 
 
Everyone were very pleased with my decision " to protect honour and
advantage of the Russian person and belief orthodox " and promised to
come on a meeting and is old and mlad. 
 
In the evening at Aleksandrovyh there were visitors. In conversations
concerned only the questions concerning to " to Manual loyal ". To
indignation, indignation there were no borders, and at the same time
secret, carefully concealable fear has been written on persons of all
orators. " Let a head will chop off, but I shall not bow to their
goddess! " - Alexander Ivanovich got excited, but in his kind, sad
eyes has been written: - " Carry by, My God, past ? " 
 
I have apologized and has gone with visit to about. To Maxim
Panikorovskomu. 
 
Here too there were visitors. Father Maxim and his wife have
hospitably met me. With only Russian hospitality they treated the
visitors. Someone from them has mentioned a question " about the
goddess ". 
 
- This number will not pass!.. - has hotly told the father. - have far
  sufficed! 
 
- Will be suppressed! - someone from visitors has with conviction
  supported it. 
 
The son-in-law of father Maxim, the employee of the Japanese military
mission Boris Izmaylov from its part, promised me the full assistance
in the safe sanction lifted by me before authorities of a question. 
 
- Not posramim sacred our belief ? - was continued by father Maxim. -
  it is correct, Boris? And? We shall not give in?!.. Any matrasok it
  is not necessary for us! Let lives will deprive!.. On sufferings, on
  tortures I shall go!.. - more and more priest got excited. Poor
  batja. It spoke hotly, but ? on the person poorly concealable horror
  has been written. 
 
I have returned late and have lain in bed with any vaguely soznavaemym
a hard feeling not that of melancholy, not that of uncertainty in
sincerity of words of all people surrounding me. 
 
For the second day of Christmas, after impoverish, to Aleksandrovym
there came visitors. Spoke all about the same "loyal" passport and
goddess "Matraske". 
 
After a dinner at school people began to gather. I have declared the
ataman, that assembly I shall not open until representatives of a
local police and local fathers will come: orthodox - father Maxim
Panikarovsky and old believe - father John Shadrin to whom I have sent
the invitation letter. 
 
At two o'clock thirty minutes there has come police. To people was,
that refers to - there's not an inch of room. Have filled in all huge
class and an adjoining corridor. Fathers still are not present. I have
sent for father Maxim. Poslanets has soon returned and has told, that
about. Maxim cannot come. From Boris Izmaylov has received a note in
which it wrote, that it entirely on my party, but come on assembly,
unfortunately, cannot. 
 
For father Maxim the ataman has gone. Has returned and speaks: 
 
- Well, that, orthodox, the pastor has left the sheeps ? It is
  necessary to do without the pastor!.. 
 
I at this time sat in the next class one. The consciousness of the
responsibility taken on with inevitable consequences down to
uzhasnejshih tortures in prison, uncertainty in deep sincerity of
applications for encouragement of people surrounding me, feeling of
the weakness, fear, a unnatural cold and at the same time any
inexpressible deep pleasure - all this has entirely seized all my
essence. 
 
At last words of the ataman I have come in the big class filled with
people. All sitting on benches have risen. I have greeted and when
present have borrowed places, have opened assembly. The old believe
priest father John at this time has come. 
 
- Cossacks, - I began the speech, - in the autumn I was in Harbin, saw
  there general Janagita. It asked me to transfer you the hot
  greetings. General Janagita is interested in our life and, including
  itself the friend Russian, promised the assistance in all your
  economic undertakings. It is the friend Russian and concerning our
  belief - we see it in his material aid to our temples, and also
  schools, hospitals and shelters; therefore we should not think, that
  the Japanese authorities want to close our schools, to destroy our
  belief and in ours tserkvah to put the gods. Believe me is a lie and
  who distributes similar hearings, that first of all our
  enemy. Further, we live on the another's ground belonging to the
  another's state, here again we can work, pray and bring up somehow
  our children for our Native land which waits for us. For it we
  should render this or that help to this state as taxes, civil duties
  if they are not directed against our own country which we, by virtue
  of historical circumstances, temporarily have lost. We here time
  visitors and as visitors we can not dictate those or other
  conditions, favourable to us. We can ask only about change of these
  conditions within the limits of possible for the state. If something
  is not pleasant to us in a life of this state, we should either be
  silent, or speak about it openly to authorities. As a last resort it
  is necessary to leave the country, but to not be engaged in
  underground activity, and furthermore to not try to thrust a knife
  in a back of this state because of a corner. We have no place to
  leave, and therefore it is necessary to ask only. 
 
Recently you have received from the counselor of the governor
so-called " Manual loyal ". In the first item of this "Manual" it is
spoken, that we as loyal should esteem goddess Amaterasu Oomikami
reverentially. Naturally, this item strongly excites us. It excites
and me. First of all I personally do not think myself the citizen
emperor Kande, Tennoo on that simple basis, that at me was not
present, as well as at you, this citizenship, and I am not going to
take it. I think myself the citizen of Russia which is, will be and
never will die. Let now us separates from it any time barrier and we
cannot go there yet, but I believe, time when and for us doors of our
Native land will be open will come and we can take part in its
life. That is why, as I have declared also to authorities, I cannot
count myself the citizen of emperor Manchzhudigo and, hence, I can not
reverentially esteem goddess Amaterasu, first, because she as Japanese
speak, is light, soul and heart of their state, and, second, she for
me does not exist. To esteem nonexistent I think absurdity, pretence
and hypocrisy. I declare the first about it openly, I one have
undertaken the responsibility and one is ready to be responsible for
the step. I do not ask also your encouragement that you to not
bring. This question - business of your personal conscience.